Happy

I know we all immediately change Pharrell's song "Happy" after listening to it a million times. My 8 year old cousin played that song nonstop last summer to the point where I cannot even enjoy such a positive, kid-friendly song. This was an interesting week for me. Started out by finding myself in a tug-o-war with God after having some of my past resurface. I had a breakdown last week and really sat down and asked God, "Why me? Why do I have to deal with hurt and why can't I move on?" and without saying anything, one of my best friends called me and started talking to me about my plans for the rest of the year and things to look forward to. Without me saying anything to her and showing that I was hurting, she began to remind me about how amazing God really is and how he continues to deliver blessings. I spent months crying and not understanding how beautiful life is, and spending more time pleasing other people but not focusing on what makes me happy. This was the first time in months I spent an entire week 100% happy! I was singing in the shower, smiling, having the absolute TIME of my life all because the minute I stopped worrying about things that were not in my control, I started seeing how God really does deliver. I spent the week committing to workout 5 days for at least an hour no matter how busy or how exhausted I was (although I did stay home yesterday and spent the day catching up on Netflix and eating Chinese ha ha) as well as visiting one of my good friend from Los Angeles that came into town last week. We were able to spend time with each other as well as meet some of her young black professional friends in Chicago. So my challenge to you for this week is to find your happiness within YOURSELF. If that means you spend time reading a book, exercise or going out with your friends, then do it! Do something that gives you that joy to sing Whitney Houston in the shower (although I have been told I sing like an angel.. up for discussion according to my family and friends) or to have that glow (no, not a pregnancy glow, or an "in love" glow) that gives you that everlasting joy. I wake up in the morning with a smile and immediately thank God for giving me my joy back. Start looking forward to the future instead of living in the past. I've been told that happiness is contagious, so I'm hoping to pass on good vibes and happiness to all of you! Have a great week y'all ❤️ P.S. Here's a picture of the city, my view Saturday during a BBQ day party