Finding Yourself

Finding Yourself

Happy Friday Everyone!

I hope you all have had an amazing week and are ready for a great weekend! This week I am focusing on the topic, “Finding Yourself”. Often in our life, we lose sight of the reason why we do certain things. We often ask ourselves, why did I go to this school? Why did I apply for this job? Take a deep breathe, because you are not alone.

In 2013, I began the application process to transfer universities and absolutely had NO idea what field I wanted to get in, nor what major I wanted to study. I had an amazing counselor at San Jose City College that not only took the time to help me explore my options, but gave me the opportunity to write down what my interests where in order to narrow down a field that I would enjoy working in for 40 years. I told her I had a huge passion for sports but was not made to be a professional athlete. I wasn’t sure what careers would be available in the sports world, but she assured me there was a whole world out there with multiple opportunities for me to work for.

Fast forward to Spring Semester, I ended up committing to the University of California, Santa Barbara as a Pre-Comm Major. I was so excited because my grandmother and mother were in love with the city as well as how easy the drive up would be. Although UCSB is an AMAZING school, something in my heart told me that this wasn’t the school for me; I knew on the other hand how happy my mother and grandma were that I made the decision to go here, so I decided to give it a chance. In my first year, I have managed to obtain above a 3.0, gain 3 internships and keep a 20-hour a week job.

 I found myself often putting others before myself, which led me to letting myself go in many ways. Often in life, we do what we think is best for others through our day-to day basis. For example, we often sacrifice our time, money and energy in other people instead of focusing on ourselves which hindsight turns into us losing what our purpose on this earth is and who we are as individuals. I spent so much time worrying about other people and their needs instead of worrying about mine. My advice to all of you is this: always do what’s best for you! Make time for yourself every single day. One of my biggest regrets was that I didn’t spend enough time with myself and with God. I make myself a promise everyday to commit 5-10 minutes in the morning and at night to read my devotion and to pray for strength and healing because deep down, I am still broken with some issues that have gone on in my life that continue to resurface. I said in my last post, you must love yourself before anyone can love you. In my situation, I need to start living a healthier lifestyle both physically and mentally in order to love myself again. Writing this blog every week gives me time to write my thoughts and express what I’m feeling in order to share it with you. My second piece of advice is to ALWAYS put you first. Start your process on finding yourself whether that means to make a chart of your goals (1 month, 3 month, 6 month and 1 year) in order to see small progress, which leads to bigger goals. Everyday we are battling within ourselves to be the best we can be because we live only once and want to get it right the first time. In the constant battle of finding myself, I want you all to know that it will all be okay! There is always a light at the end of the tunnel, and sometimes, the dark clouds make your story that much better. If it wasn’t for the struggle you wouldn’t have the strength. God is always building you even when it seems like He’s breaking you. Have a great week everyone!